Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Crazy, crazy. We're all crazy.

It's the week before finals, but oddly, I don't feel too out of whack. I mean, I'm stressed. But I'm not overwhelmed.

This semester's issue of Cardinal Sins was released to the pubic on Monday. The night before the post-publication reception, I realized that even though it's the most exasperating thing I've ever done, I really will miss being editor-in-chief. A sign I've grown? I like to think so.

Another reason I'm not as stressed out as everyone else is right now: Last semester, I was a mess. Every week felt like the week before final exams. I'm calmer now; things are back in perspective. I've spent the winter semester getting my ducks in a row. Apologizing constantly for what's over & done. If you freak out, you're not supposed to show it.

Right now I'm reading _My Sister, My Love_ by Joyce Carol Oates. It satirizes social climbing parents in affluent suburbs. And I grew up in Grosse Pointe, so I think it's hilarious & brilliant.

The thing about JCO: Her characters are all so friggin' bizarre. And yet, she writes so well and so honestly about people. I think we're all a whole lot crazier than we let on.

Guess I shouldn't be too hard on myself for being honest.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

If you're going to be a bigot, I'm going to be a "spaz."

My sister has this bad habit of saying "you're so gay" when she means to refer to something as "dumb." She uses the n-word with alarming regularity. And today I said something to which she responded, "You're such a Jew."

I always call her out on it. And her response is always the same: "Stop being such a spaz."

This morning our parents were sitting there with us when I called her out on it. Paige again told me to "stop spazzing." I went on about how I was quite serious, and wouldn't have bothered to call her out had I not found the comment offensive.

My parents then told me to stop overreacting, because it's "just a phrase" that doesn't mean anything.

Well, cool. If it's just a phrase without meaning, could you remove it from your vocabulary, then? Because it obviously won't be missed.